The Refractory Period (noun).

When asked to define the term on this morning’s bloodcurdling exam, I may have over-stepped some student-professor boundaries in my response.

I won’t get into too much detail about why I don’t regret it. Maybe my brain is just so fried that it refuses to acknowledge right from wrong. Ironic, a test on the brain is what inevitably slaughters it.

The correct definition, as it relates to Cognitive Neuroscience, is when a neuron has just fired and can not respond to additional stimuli. The nerve is empty, exhausted, and pretty much useless for the time being. And then I wrote about how

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Journal Entry #14

~Adirondack Extreme~

I spent all of yesterday swinging from trees.

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I signed up for this trip to Adirondack Extreme through my college, it was completely free and worth every second of my time. It’s located in upstate New York, one of the most beautiful places to hold an outdoors obstacle course.

We were at least 50 feet off the ground, swinging on ropes and skateboarding in mid air. We tested our strength, balance, mind and body. I discovered a side of me that I never had the chance to set free. IMG_0746

I love hanging in mid air with nothing but a harness to hold me up and the most beautiful views below my feet. My favorite part, zip lining through the branches of the trees I just conquered. We made it through all six courses, including the “black course” which not many even dared to try. However, it completely destroyed my upper body. My arms are still aching as I type.IMG_0742

All together, I never felt so alive or strong. I was flying. It almost feels unnatural not to balance on suspended blocks of wood and metal rings for half the day. My aura is rejuvenated and my sense of adventure is heavy. The understanding I have of myself and my limits are deeper. I somehow feel more confident as a person.IMG_0743

I was upset that my friends bailed out on me at the last second. I was crushed when I thought I might not be able to go on this adventure.

Screw it, I said to myself. I’ll conquer any social anxiety I may possess and make some new friends on the trip. Which, I can honestly say I did. Allison, John and Madison were some of the most motivational people to take on the forest with. I’m so glad they had my back throughout the entire trip.

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Journal Entry #8

~St. Patty’s Day & My So-Far Spring Break~

Today I spent the day in New York City. My friends and I trolled around Manhattan, The Bronx, Queens, and Brooklyn. Most of that was just passing by, but I just love being submerged in that atmosphere. I forget how wonderfully tall these buildings are from across the Hudson River. I forget how I actually love crowded city streets, bustling action and lights that never die. I am introverted at times, but I am not an introvert.

Our friend works at a Thai Restaurant/Bar in Brooklyn, so naturally we visited on St. Patrick’s day. The food was better than I expected. Fried calamari with spicy/sweet chili sauce and fried vanilla ice cream for dessert. I’m still suffering a food coma.

Staying home this week has been incredible. College is grand, but you tend to miss this familiar environment. You miss the food, your friends, your own bed. Above all, I missed sleeping into the afternoon. And who needs to travel when you live 5 minutes away from the greatest city on Earth?

Sure, I didn’t visit Daytona Beach or head down to Cancun for some topless, wild, drunken week I would never have remembered. I stayed home, the single spot from which my universe revolves.

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The big 7

New Years Resolutions? What about Life Resolutions? There are so many things that I want to accomplish in this lifetime, wants and desires that I know will be carried out. Why you ask? Because I said so.

  1. I want to finish college before I’m neck deep in unpaid debt.
  2. I want to become a teacher, loved and respected by my students.
  3. I want to travel, especially to places that won’t be on the map forever.
  4. I want to perform on stage at least once in my life.
  5. I want to fall in love with myself before I allow others to.
  6. I want to write that best seller I’ve always dreamed of.
  7. I desire people to remember me with both sweet and sour memories, but to remember me forever.