The Year of the Writer

When I was in 6th grade my teacher told me that I wrote an excellent poem far above my grade level. It rhymed, it made sense, it was even kinda funny. The wonderful thing about that poem was that I had never written one before, and It was perfected in under ten minutes.

Since then I thought myself a brilliant writer. It was the first time anyone had ever told me that. A few years had past before anyone had complimented me on my writing skills again, so I started to think less of it.

My senior year had come around and my english teacher was thrilled with my college essay. She told me I “got the stuff.” This wasn’t the moment I decided to write a book though, that moment was long before. I would stay up countless hours to write drafts of novels that were never completed. Ideas that were lost on scattered pages and on old computers that were never backed up. The only completed book that I ever wrote was in middle school, and I couldn’t even tell you where that hunk of printer paper is today.

So when I got back into reading for fun, sometime in-between the last Twilight book and The Hunger Games, I told myself that I can do this. I’m smart, I’m imaginative, and I “got the stuff.”

The problem was that I never found my idea, there was no spark to light the fire, I didn’t have that best selling bombshell. Despite my road bumps, I never gave up. After years of internal torture I finally may have something worth a chapter 2.

I will probably start posting snippets of it, asking for feed back. I don’t wan’t to continue a dead beat story.

However, I want to be honest with you. I have been scared of this book. I have sat there for hours staring at my finished prologue, worrying about moving forward. I have deliberately ignored the file on my desktop labeled “Dystopian Novel” since before finals week. What If It turns out that this idea is no good, and I’ve let even more of my time decay? What If it’s a great idea, but I’m not skilled enough to carry it out?

I think about the storyline constantly, playing around with it in my head. I just fear the pen and paper. I worry that I’ll take a wrong turn and become so discouraged that i’ll stop.

And I don’t want to stop.

This is why I have marked 2015 as “The Year of the Writer.” As my greatest and foremost important new years resolution, I vow to leave all my fears about this book behind and to jump into it with everything that I have.

This is it. I’m all in.


  1. First, let me say I am glad you enjoy my haiku posts. Haiku is a new genre for me. Second, regarding your story above, I think some people believe you have to be driven to write successfully, you have to write every day–all that stuff. I disagree. With two published books, one of which was even translated into Spanish, I still do not feel a writer has to write daily to be a real writer. I have “spells” of inspiration and write when they occur. Do not feel something is wrong if you do not feel the need to write every day. People differ; what works for one writer may not work for another.

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  2. Absolutely just keep writing. As well as changing career (I’m now studying to teach English here in Switzerland), I’ve decided that 2015 will be the year I seriously write. I had a couple of small successes last year and I want that to grow and continue. I’m now following you to see how you get on. Go for it Angela!

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  3. Keep writing. Write Write Write! If you have “the stuff”, it doesn’t go away. I’d love to read some snippets!
    I re-started writing a few years ago and shared some of my work with friends and family. The more I wrote, the better I became. I read tons of information on writing styles, join several writing sites, and posted snippets in writers groups. Yes, some of my work was criticized, but as my skin thickened, I learned tips and tricks to make my writing better without losing my personal voice.
    You can do it. Just practice. And it helps to read out loud. Hearing your words is a great way to perfect the craft!
    Good luck!
    Write On, Sister!

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  4. Look at all the great advice and encouragement above. I could say something like, If your=’re not going to do this for yourself, do it for us, but better advice is the one my neighbor told me (I know you read my article) “Just F***ing write it!” LOL. It’s a lot easier than you think. Your first draft will be rough, but don’t worry about that. If you do not see it as rough, then you have a problem. πŸ˜‰ You might want to look under my “Writing Tips” menu item on text-2-speech playback. I have found this to be one of the best tools for a writer. If you don’t like the way it sounds, trust me, neither will your readers. Go for it. Write every day, even if for 10 minutes.

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  5. You have a very natural flow to your writing, and a mind that offers up the right word at the right time to make your sentences interesting. Everything else is hard work, but work that’s worth it when you have what it takes to achieve a worthwhile result. Good luck!

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  6. It’s terrifying first starting your novel. I know for the novel I am writing now, I played with the idea in my head for a year until one day I couldn’t do it anymore. I just sat down and wrote. I started with a short story version of it first, a story of the turning point in the novel and then from there I was able to expand on the idea. But you just have to take that leap! And to be honest, your novel will change dramatically with each draft. The short story I have to the novel I have now is so different and I’m not even done with the first draft of the novel! Good luck though!!

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  7. You can do it! Just write that first draft without worrying about grammar, typos, or missing links (if it needs research). Just do it, and remember all first drafts suck! We are all in the same boat with the same fear, anxiety, and excitement as you feel. You are not alone. I wrote five drafts of the novel after the first one–but the first whack at the novel was the most exciting πŸ™‚ I’ve kept them all. Go for it and good luck!

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  8. A great book is inside you. Swallow all that fear and just write. Don’t edit and don’t second guess yourself – give your characters the chance to show you the story. Let it flow until there is nothing left. I believe the the comment goes: What if I FALL? – Oh my darling, What if you FLY?

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  9. Just by starting you are ahead of the pack. Get through that first draft and you are part of a tiny fraction of the horde that would be writers. There’s no punishment for writing, but I imagine the horror of reaching old age with stories unwritten would be tough to bear.
    Look at all the people here cheering you just for SAYING that you’ll do it. GO!

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  10. Yes you can! Your doubts are no different than the rest of us who aspire to write, so please don’t feel alone. And, to paraphrase Mary Anne Williamson, “We are to afraid of falling, we are afraid of succeeding.” Imagine what that would feel like, picture yourself receiving a flood of positive audience to your writing.

    Yes you can! And if you’re having trouble getting started on a novel, publish a poem or two every week. It’s writing. It’s a discipline that involves creativity and accountability. Sometimes it’s even fun to see how well a thought can be communicated in as few words as possible.

    I believe in you!

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  11. Remind yourself that the first draft of any novel pretty much sucks. For everyone. The magic is in the editing. Writing a book is a process. The more you do it, the better you get. You’ll never start learning the process unless you make yourself do it. We all suffer self-doubt but successful writers push through it. In all honesty, you might not sell your first book. Or your second. Or your third. I think Stephen King scored on number 6. Nora Roberts submitted so many manuscripts that when they called to offer her a contract she had to ask on which one. It’s a marathon not a sprint. Publishers are not only looking for quality writing but also for writers who are prolific. Authors build their audience with each book. So get started! πŸ™‚

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  12. Thanks for visiting my blog.
    I am sort of in the same boat of hesitation and trepidation. I have a few manuscripts for picture books that I must decide to send out … and then DO IT, and a novel not finished yet. This year I have got to get on this!

    I wish you success. Just write, perfect it later.

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  13. Go for it Angela! You are young and limited only by your own beliefs. I will be following your year of writing with interest and hope.


  14. Go for it! I am filled with regret for not taking that leap yet. Ever since I was a child I have believed that one day I would write a book. One day is yet to arrive. I haven’t given up hope though. Best of luck to you!


  15. The writing needs to go to AN end. Without an end it is not a complete writing. A haiku with one syllable missing is not a haiku. When end is met I personally let the piece age in a dark closet like cheese or wine. Oh the surprise when it is brought to light again.


  16. Don’t worry so much about the final product or where it goes or whether it will get published. Worry about yourself as a writer. Focus on yourself and your craft, because that’s what it’s all about. And hang on to all your drafts…that’s the best way to see yourself grow. You want to have those moments when you look back on what you wrote in the past and you think, “This sucks!” (If it doesn’t suck, that’s not a good sign!)


  17. Get it written. You can make it what you want it later. Just stick with it and get it written. Share what you feel good about, but remember all comments are only someone’s opinion. Nearly everyone I’ve spoken with writes crummy first drafts–but maybe you won’t–so don’t worry. The key is to stick with it until you have the first draft completed. Then make it the best you can before you submit it.

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  18. Its easy to question yourself and to put off your novel before you even write it. But trust me, it gets alot tougher to quit when you’re in the middle of writing it. Get to work! You will feel fulfilled when u finish it! : )

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  19. I feel you!!! Th is happens to me so frequently. I have so many ideas and so many writers have told me, “don’t think about it, just write…everyday. Well, I’m with you. I’m trying to make this the year I get it all out too! You’ve got this! X

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  20. Just do it! I’m struggling to edit my first novel at the moment and I kind of understand all your thoughts, but even though I’m no better with letting go and just submitting it I figured out that it helps if you hear people encouraging you to publish πŸ™‚ it will never be perfect, you need to find the point when to stop thinking and publish it. Wish you a lot of luck!!

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  21. Turns out we’re pretty similar! Your bravery is motivating me to revisit the stories I’m afraid aren’t worth telling. Go for it, and don’t let anyone stop you!

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